On Impact: Part II


You must be a lotus, unfolding its petals when the sun rises in the sky, unaffected by the slush where it is born or even the water which sustains it. – Sai Baba

We are the co-creators of our Universe. While I wanted to believe that the experience I was living had been “given” to me as a lesson – and there is still a part of me that believes it was – there is greater truth in the fact that we picked each other. It’s a two-way street. I picked being sick, and sick picked living in me. On my personal path, sick was always safe. Sick meant a physical shelter from emotional pain.

Once I had my sweet baby, I wanted to feel – even if it was pain. But, as always, when my emotional body had felt enough, my cells began to harbor the hurt. And I had to accept it. Accept that my baby had been critically ill. Accept that in caring for him, I had neglected myself. Accept that we could both heal; sick can take it’s toll and then be digested. Sick can be integrated into life, and beyond living – we could thrive in it’s presence.

Reflection: Think of a time when you were sick. Could your physical body have been sending you a message?

Tool, Tip, or Technique: When I was unable to use my left leg after my back injury, I spent six months meditating on that leg. I would place my hands on it, and bring light, love, and breath to this part of my physical body that had disconnected from my whole being. The next time you don’t feel your best, connect with the part of your body that is not serving you to it’s highest ability. Thank it for what it does, did, or the lessons you are gaining from this experience. Then, ask from it what you need. Note that what you truly need may not be what you ask, and welcome any gifts you receive from this experience.


  1. Brandie

    December 17, 2013 at 3:03 pm

    What a lovely and timely post. Thank you for your beautiful and transparent sharing. Recently, I was sick for only a couple of days and it had been years since anything kept me in bed. I marveled at how long and how deeply I slept in those two days! I’ve grown much in acceptance since I was sick many years before and I took this opportunity to scan my healing body, part by part , and thank it for all it does for me, every day, to get me out there to love my family, serve my clients and rock my mission. Instead of bein angry for having a 2 day time out, I was able to surrender to a much needed quiet space. Granted, that was acute and brief. Chronic and long term is much more challenging in every regard, but I hope I can apply the same principles And not fight against my next experience. Thank you, Jennifer. You are gorgeous, inside and out!!

    1. Mindful Mama Yogi

      December 17, 2013 at 3:56 pm

      So much love, Brandie. It’s amazing what Universe gives us. Often exactly what we need, even if our conscious mind tells us otherwise. I am honored to be on your path. And it brings me much joy to hear of your self-nurture. What an awesome example to set for your clients – and even more so your children!

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