Invisible Disease

I am the owner of an invisible disease. No one can see the battle. Sometimes, I go weeks or months without posting about it. But then, sometimes, I wonder if I do myself and others a disservice by staying silent.

I am not the only wife, mother, sister, friend, woman, yogi, or mompreneur fighting. So, why don’t I share the journey more???

I was diagnosed at age 11. I went through high school mostly pain free, and then I’m college it came back with a vengeance. Bleeding under my skin, seizures, lumps in both breasts, weight gain, hair loss, fatigue, a slipped disc… I could go on. I’ve been told I have rheumatoid, spondyloarthropy, lupus, mixed connective tissue disease. I just call it autoimmune. There is no other way for me to explain it.

But this year, I promised myself I WOULD explain it. Silence leads to sadness and loneliness. And I know that I’m not alone – physically or spiritually. This is my year of transformation and Fearless Health. I will no longer push myself beyond what I am able to do. It wouldn’t be fair to myself or my family. I will push myself to do what I AM able to do. And that, dear friends is to share the journey.

I had an idea that this year I would create a support system of yoga and meditation for mama’s growing “happy humans.” I didn’t know what it would look like. I thought maybe videos… Beginning to speak in public. But today, I know it’s written word. I can’t always practice… but I can always preach what I know to work wonders – on and off the mat. (I miss you, mat. I hope we meet again soon.)

Anyhow… Welcome to my journey. If it’s yours too, I hope you’ll comment and stay engaged. We are better together on this crazy adventure; and I don’t want either of us to go it alone.

This is me, fighting back.

Namaste.

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